2017’s word is Sober

I did it.  I poured out the wine that I had set aside for tonight. I’m sitting on my couch and waiting for it to be late enough to go to bed.  I’m good.  I don’t want to go out and be in the drunkenness of whatever happens on this evening in my town, plus it’s cold and raining. I’m going to feel good tomorrow.  Hopefully find a yoga class. 

I have one more week of crazy busy work and I talked to my realtor and made an action plan and then I am out of here.  At this point I don’t care if I have to do it by myself.  (My brothers are not answering my phone calls, this time of year is hard on my family.  We all have seasonal affective disorder- that’s my diagnosis anyway. ) 

Yay me!  It felt good to pour the wine down the drain and it smelled terrible, I gagged.  I need to feel well.  Alcohol is the worst thing for my body that is trying to heal from being ravaged by the eating disorder and all the other abuse I have put it through over the years.  I’m not bionic. I’m not invincible.  My brain thinks I am.  

Stay strong people.  And I am going to need you to talk me off the ledge in a few days, weeks…. 

24 thoughts on “2017’s word is Sober

  1. Yay! Good for you. You will be happier in the morning having not had that wineπŸ‘. Your tongue won’t be stuck to the roof of your mouth, head throbbing and thinking all those horrible negative thoughts because you drank. SuccessπŸ™‚ happy Sober new year πŸŽ‰πŸŽ‰

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      1. “Takes one to know one.” That’s why!
        Thank you Soberisland. Prayers that you & the Camino de Santiago meet one day.! I promise to remember for you. Until you remember for yourself…and God.

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  2. Well done honey! I’ve poured so many bottles down the drain and you know what? That is exactly where alcohol belongs down the bloody drain. The stuff is poison. There is no happy ending waiting in that bottle, but you know that already!:)xxxx

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  3. Good for you! I am at 64 days sober and it’s the best decision I ever made. You will never regret it. The first week is the hardest. It gets easier and soon you will find life better than you could ever imagine. Here’s to a sober, healthy 2017!!!

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